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Asking who Am I?
I started my journey within by asking myself who am I? After a tumultuous time in my life, I found myself asking what really defines me? And honestly it is quiet embarrassing but I have never really asked that question without looking deeper than the superficial answers. I have always known there was a deeper spirit within myself and it always felt out of sync to how I was living my life. Almost like to opposite magnets that cannot connect within myself.
The irony is that I connect people for a living. I create events and manage relationships for a living...but for everyone else, not for myself. I know how to create deep and lasting relationships with others, but have never created or even tried to create that within myself. A good way to explain it is that I always felt out of place in this world because I was not listening to my inner voice and always just tried to push it down. Whenever I tried to ignore what I know in my heart I should do, whether it be a simple task or a following my heart.
Once I lost what I thought my identity was; relationship status, career, home, some friends and family...I began to ask what am I? If I am not my job, my relationship, my success, than who the heck am I? I have no idea! Well, this explains why I never really knew how to love myself or understand that I am worthy of love, because I have never known who I really am.
Being the practical person I am, I wanted something tangible to help define who I was. Through asking myself daily, and trying to explain to myself who I was, I realized I just am. One of my favorite quotes from Mahatma Gandhi helped me with my continued journey within, "Where there is love there is life." I believe each soul is connected to the divine and therefore we each are here to experience the divine flowing through us. To me, the divine expresses itself in all of us with pure love, so I like to think of the divine (source, god, creator) as Love. I think that we are here on this earth to experience the human life to learn lessons of our ego, live with joy, and share our gifts of love.
As I continued to "search" for my answers of who I am, I realized no words could ever express who I am. It is a knowing in my heart that I am connected to all things and beings. I have always found it easier to give than receive and to love another more than loving myself. It is backwards to the way most live and I have always wondered why I am like that? Because I care so much for others as it has presented many challenges in my life. And there it is...through the lessons I have learned from not knowing how to love myself, I have learned how to love myself, because I AM LOVE!
"Life is Love, Therefore I Am Love" -EMO
The irony is that I connect people for a living. I create events and manage relationships for a living...but for everyone else, not for myself. I know how to create deep and lasting relationships with others, but have never created or even tried to create that within myself. A good way to explain it is that I always felt out of place in this world because I was not listening to my inner voice and always just tried to push it down. Whenever I tried to ignore what I know in my heart I should do, whether it be a simple task or a following my heart.
Once I lost what I thought my identity was; relationship status, career, home, some friends and family...I began to ask what am I? If I am not my job, my relationship, my success, than who the heck am I? I have no idea! Well, this explains why I never really knew how to love myself or understand that I am worthy of love, because I have never known who I really am.
Being the practical person I am, I wanted something tangible to help define who I was. Through asking myself daily, and trying to explain to myself who I was, I realized I just am. One of my favorite quotes from Mahatma Gandhi helped me with my continued journey within, "Where there is love there is life." I believe each soul is connected to the divine and therefore we each are here to experience the divine flowing through us. To me, the divine expresses itself in all of us with pure love, so I like to think of the divine (source, god, creator) as Love. I think that we are here on this earth to experience the human life to learn lessons of our ego, live with joy, and share our gifts of love.
As I continued to "search" for my answers of who I am, I realized no words could ever express who I am. It is a knowing in my heart that I am connected to all things and beings. I have always found it easier to give than receive and to love another more than loving myself. It is backwards to the way most live and I have always wondered why I am like that? Because I care so much for others as it has presented many challenges in my life. And there it is...through the lessons I have learned from not knowing how to love myself, I have learned how to love myself, because I AM LOVE!
"Life is Love, Therefore I Am Love" -EMO
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